About five or six months ago I stopped writing in my spare time. I had convinced myself that what I was writing didn’t matter and that I didn’t have enough time to do it. The truth is that I had listened to and believed a few lies about myself that weren’t true. “Your voice doesn’t matter.”, “Why would you waste your time writing, when no one is reading this?” “Who are you fooling? You’re not a writer.”
These lies were coming from the same dark place. A lack of self confidence. The crazy part about that is, I haven’t struggled with low self confidence in a long time. What had changed?
The bottom line was I was exhausted. It was the combination of a few different things. It was the perfect storm actually. I was entering into a different season of life, my kids were doing the same, ministry had picked up, changes were happening at work and personally. I was constantly busy but the truth is I wasn’t taking the time I was provided and using it to write. I wasn’t investing or prioritizing my time toward the goal of becoming a better writer. I had allowed my schedule and stress that ensued, become a barrier.
I wasn’t creating margin in my life to be refreshed and recharged.
I had also made the goal of getting better at my craft become writing a book and getting it published. I am still focused on making that happen but I am also dedicated to becoming better at it as a means to accomplishing this goal. The only way that is going to happen is by investing time.
My new goal is to write something in this space once a week. Its that simple. Hopefully you’ll join me every week. Regardless, I’ll be here. Looking forward to having more conversations like this. See ya next week.
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